Winning Isn’t What I Thought It Was;

For a long time, I thought winning looked like having everything together.The right people around me.The right life.The right version of myself that everyone could accept, admire, or at least not question.I thought if I could just get it perfect enough, I’d finally feel safe. I’d finally feel like I made it.But life has a [...]

When Hurt Changes You;

There’s a version of me I don’t like meeting.She shows up when I’m hurting—when trust gets bent, when words don’t match actions, when I realize someone I thought was safe… isn’t. She’s sharper. Quieter in the wrong ways. Louder in the ones that push people away. She doesn’t believe easily, doesn’t soften quickly, and definitely [...]

What CPTSD Really Is;

CPTSD (Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) doesn’t come from one bad moment.It comes from being in survival mode for a long time—especially in situations where you couldn’t just leave.It’s not one accident.Not one situation.It’s what happens when you feel unsafe over and over again, usually in relationships. Where it usually comes from: • Emotional abuse growing [...]

Not Everyone Deserves A Seat At My Table;

At 28, I thought I had finally figured out what “safe” looked like.Not perfect. Not fairytale-perfect. But steady. Earned. Real.After everything I went through—treatment, rebuilding my life from the ground up, learning how to sit with myself without running, numbing, or self-destructing—I believed I had become someone who could recognize the difference between chaos and [...]