When I say I am exhausted, I mean: I can not remember what I am doing from one moment to the next. Fiction conflates with reality, and I do not know if the person I know is a character from a book or someone I went to college with. Did I feed the dog? Or [...]
Tag: crying
Why Do I Feel So Bad?
Hundreds if not thousands of people have written about the fight-or-flight response. Google it. You’ll find enough articles to keep you reading all year. However, I have an overwhelming desire to write about it again. Why? Because in my experience it is one of the main reasons people experience anxiety, distress, overwhelm, lose sleep, snap [...]
Grief Is Suffocating
https://videopress.com/v/SLtBjr6s?resizeToParent=true&cover=true&preloadContent=metadata&useAverageColor=true Grief is just love with no place to go. Grief is suffocating. It wraps around you like a heavy blanket, pressing down on your chest until each breath feels like a struggle. It’s the weight that settles in your bones, making every movement an act of defiance against the invisible force pulling you down. [...]
Nanny Life Won’t Be The Same Without You;
As I sit down to write this letter to you I can’t help but cry and think about how much I miss you. It’s been awhile since I’ve seen you and I want to say, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that it was so hard for me to be able to come home to be with [...]
To The Cheerful Person On Their Rainy Days, You Are Valid
The world is not always sunshine and rainbows, and you do not have to be, either. Ask friends of mine to name a quality about me, and one a lot them will point out the fact that I am almost always smiling. However, what a lot of people do not see is that I have [...]
Recovery;
So, you finished rehab. You’re sober now. Living in a halfway house. Waking up early to catch the bus to a job that barely pays the bills. You’re splitting a fridge with three other addicts, Listening to them fight over food or relapse excuses, Trying to stay focused on your own lane — your own [...]
Accept People As They Are, But Place Them Where They belong.
“If they are showing you who they are and not who you perceive them to be, let them.” — Cassie Phillips If people misunderstand you to be someone you’re not and hate you for it, let them. If people take your presence for granted every single time and never really cared for your feelings, let [...]
It’s Okay To Feel Lonely
Because the rollercoaster is what makes you human. Yesterday it rained. It’s times like these where the hopeless romantic in me is love-drunk with the scene around her: a creative-type, sitting in bed writing; occasionally peering through a raindrop-covered window, listening to the gentle pitter-patter, mixed with the occasional slushing of a car passing by, [...]
Dear Andy,
I miss you. I know that's what everyone says at a time like this, but I don't know what else to say. When I say, "I miss you," I mean I miss everything about you. I miss your hearty laugh, especially when we would laugh for 10 minutes straight about something that only you and [...]
He Didn’t Date Me for Love
He Dated Me to See If He Could Be Loved Without Deserving It He never looked at me like someone he loved. He looked at me like someone who might be dumb enough to love him anyway. That’s the part that still cuts. It wasn’t romance, it was a social experiment. A test. A “let’s [...]
