CPTSD (Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) doesn’t come from one bad moment.It comes from being in survival mode for a long time—especially in situations where you couldn’t just leave.It’s not one accident.Not one situation.It’s what happens when you feel unsafe over and over again, usually in relationships. Where it usually comes from: • Emotional abuse growing [...]
I need you. I do. It sucks to admit it. It sucks to not feel like I can do and suceed in everything on my own. But the truth is, I wasn't meant to do it all on my own. Guess what? Neither are you. You don't "need" your right hand. But you know what? [...]
At 28, I thought I had finally figured out what “safe” looked like.Not perfect. Not fairytale-perfect. But steady. Earned. Real.After everything I went through—treatment, rebuilding my life from the ground up, learning how to sit with myself without running, numbing, or self-destructing—I believed I had become someone who could recognize the difference between chaos and [...]
You may not be in my life, but you are still in my heart. I grew up knowing that there was something wrong between us. The tension in the air, the hesitation before you spoke, the glare in your eye. I spent my childhood seeing my friends have amazing, loving relationships with their mothers, then [...]
In the last few years, it seems like the world is a never-ending maze of pain with no way out. It's too lonely to bear, and the future looks bad and uncertain. At this point, the simplest things—personal hygiene, eating, socializing; things most people do without thinking twice—became big problems. Im numb, apathetic, and uninterested [...]
Everyone wants to be happy, feel good about themselves, and be free. It’s something we all deserve. But sometimes, being too happy is scary. There are moments when I’m enjoying life, feeling on top of the world, and not worrying about anything. Just living in the present, thinking that everything is finally going well. But [...]
First and foremost, I want you to know, how special you are, and I don’t mean it in the way your parents do. When they boast about you to their friends and your family, because that always seemed forced, even though I’m sure they mean well. No, I want you to know how you light [...]
Starting over in life happens to someone every second around the world. We often hear of how we need to take risks to get ahead, but seldom hear of the one’s who did and lost everything. Many of these people are labeled as failure, quitter or underachiever, but this is not even close to the [...]
I never asked you to come into my life. You wanted to be a part of it. You signed up for everything on your own. You wanted to share your life with me and you wanted me to let you in mine. You were so convincing because in some moments I saw you looking at [...]
When I say I am exhausted, I mean: I can not remember what I am doing from one moment to the next. Fiction conflates with reality, and I do not know if the person I know is a character from a book or someone I went to college with. Did I feed the dog? Or [...]
Perfectly Imperfect 