When I Say I’m Exhausted

When I say I am exhausted, I mean: I can not remember what I am doing from one moment to the next. Fiction conflates with reality, and I do not know if the person I know is a character from a book or someone I went to college with. Did I feed the dog? Or [...]

What If I Told You I Love You

What if I told you everything I’ve been hiding so deep inside? If I just looked you in the eyes and told you every single insecurity that plagues me daily. Or how about that I just don’t feel good enough for you. Because I don’t. I don’t feel like I’ve been the person worthy of [...]

You Are Valuable

(Whether You believe it or not) Do you believe you are valuable, or do you feel like a nobody? A failure? Someone who’s life doesn’t matter. I get it. I’ve struggled with feeling valuable, too. Have you ever said hello to a friend and been totally ignored? I have. If I spot someone across the [...]

To The Cheerful Person On Their Rainy Days, You Are Valid

The world is not always sunshine and rainbows, and you do not have to be, either. Ask friends of mine to name a quality about me, and one a lot them will point out the fact that I am almost always smiling. However, what a lot of people do not see is that I have [...]

Recovery;

So, you finished rehab. You’re sober now. Living in a halfway house. Waking up early to catch the bus to a job that barely pays the bills. You’re splitting a fridge with three other addicts, Listening to them fight over food or relapse excuses, Trying to stay focused on your own lane — your own [...]

Accept People As They Are, But Place Them Where They belong.

“If they are showing you who they are and not who you perceive them to be, let them.” — Cassie Phillips If people misunderstand you to be someone you’re not and hate you for it, let them. If people take your presence for granted every single time and never really cared for your feelings, let [...]

It’s Okay To Feel Lonely

Because the rollercoaster is what makes you human. Yesterday it rained. It’s times like these where the hopeless romantic in me is love-drunk with the scene around her: a creative-type, sitting in bed writing; occasionally peering through a raindrop-covered window, listening to the gentle pitter-patter, mixed with the occasional slushing of a car passing by, [...]

Dear Andy,

I miss you. I know that's what everyone says at a time like this, but I don't know what else to say. When I say, "I miss you," I mean I miss everything about you. I miss your hearty laugh, especially when we would laugh for 10 minutes straight about something that only you and [...]

He Didn’t Date Me for Love

He Dated Me to See If He Could Be Loved Without Deserving It He never looked at me like someone he loved. He looked at me like someone who might be dumb enough to love him anyway. That’s the part that still cuts. It wasn’t romance, it was a social experiment. A test. A “let’s [...]

This Is My Reminder To Live.

I almost forgot this is the whole point There are days when the world becomes blurry. Not because my vision falters, but because I stop seeing. I wake up, and everything feels like a checklist. Breathe. Work. Smile. Answer. Pretend. Sleep. Repeat. Life is reduced to a loop of survival. It’s not that I’m sad. [...]