When I say I am exhausted, I mean: I can not remember what I am doing from one moment to the next. Fiction conflates with reality, and I do not know if the person I know is a character from a book or someone I went to college with. Did I feed the dog? Or [...]
He Dated Me to See If He Could Be Loved Without Deserving It He never looked at me like someone he loved. He looked at me like someone who might be dumb enough to love him anyway. That’s the part that still cuts. It wasn’t romance, it was a social experiment. A test. A “let’s [...]
Let me hit you with something you probably haven’t heard from your therapist because they’re too busy validating your heartbreak: You didn’t lose your soulmate. You lost your fucking illusion. And I get it — that hurts more. Because the fantasy? It was perfect.It made you feel chosen.It gave your chaos a purpose.It was your [...]
“The heaviest conversations are the ones we never have.” You ever sit with someone, and there’s so much you want to say, but the words feel too heavy to push past your lips? Not because you don’t know how, but because you’re afraid of what will come next. It’s funny how silence can be louder [...]
What if all my trying only gets me close, but not quite. Have you ever tried so hard that your bones remember the weight of the effort, even when your mind has already begun to forget? I have. There are nights when I lie awake and think about all the versions of myself I’ve given [...]
You really do get over it on a random day Sometimes, some things don’t happen the way you think they will. There’s no grand moment, no fireworks in your chest, no sudden burst of clarity. You just wake up one day, maybe on a Tuesday morning or a Saturday afternoon, and something feels … different. Not [...]
When love made me forget who I was, I had to choose myself to find my way back. I used to wake up each morning with a heart full of excitement, But now I wake up with a quiet ache, Wondering when I stopped feeling like myself. I used to believe that love was about [...]
But Not Always for the Right Reasons. You haven’t heard from them in months. Maybe even years. You spent countless nights wondering if they ever thought about you, if they ever regretted leaving. And just when you’ve finally learned how to live without them — ding. “Hey, how are you?” Like nothing happened. Like they didn’t disappear [...]
The day I went to prison was one of the most transformative days of my life. This was all a stark contrast to the menacing appearance that a prison has from the outside, the dehumanizing element that the American prison system is infamous for. It was also a stark contrast to who we’ve been programmed [...]
We've all been there, and it's not a fun place to be It’s the feeling in the pit of your stomach. It's the quickening of your breath. It's the feeling of your heart dropping in your stomach and like you're going to pass out. Maybe you even start to shake or sweat. It's the moment [...]
Perfectly Imperfect 