If The Sun Refused To Shine

Baby, would I still be your lover? I’ve been loved for false versions of myself. In return, I’ve been despised for the things I told people through honesty. But it’s far, far more fulfilling, because it’s tiring, it’s tiring to act like a robot or the friendly-face template that smiles at every single person when [...]

What If I Never Met You?

Sometimes, when night comes and I am alone with my thoughts, I think about you. The you who came into my life unexpectedly and suddenly became the center of my universe. The you with your blue shirt and thick-lensed glasses, smiling softly at those around you. The you who was too shy to talk to [...]

Am I Too Weak Or Is This Too Much?

“I wish I could grow up sooner!” my five-year-old self exclaimed. Little did she know that growing up is far more maddening and infuriating than she could imagine. When I was a child, I remember how easily I became annoyed if my parents ordered me to take a nap during the daytime. “Why should I [...]

Happiness Is Scary

Everyone wants to be happy, feel good about themselves, and be free. It’s something we all deserve. But sometimes, being too happy is scary. There are moments when I’m enjoying life, feeling on top of the world, and not worrying about anything. Just living in the present, thinking that everything is finally going well. But [...]

To The Man I Hurt With My Words

I hope this letter finds you well. I am writing to you today with a heavy heart, filled with regret and remorse for the pain I have caused you. Please accept my sincerest apologies for my thoughtless actions and the hurt they have inflicted upon you. I understand my actions were careless, and I should [...]

For So Long I Believed I Didn’t Deserve Love

It’s easy to feel like I am unlovable. Like the way that I am takes away some of the value I hold as a human being. That I am ‘less than’ because of reasons ‘x, y, and z.’My struggle with mental health has falsely defined me for too much of my life. I allowed the [...]

Healing

The biggest life lesson I’ve learned is that to be healed doesn’t mean everything will feel suddenly perfect forever. It’s a misconception I used to punish myself over. Why am I feeling like this again when I was doing so great? Instead, to be healed means; you have better coping mechanisms to deal with the [...]

When You Feel Homesick For a Place You’ve Never Been

I haven’t found my true home yet.” When someone says “I’m homesick”, often we assume they are in some foreign land, sighing in desperation: “Oh how I miss the weather, the people, the food, the comfort of my bed…” Then when they return home, guess what? They’re still homesick. I’ve struggled to describe that feeling [...]

It’s Okay To Disappear Until You Feel Like You Again

Sometimes, all you need is to take a break and work on yourself. If you’ve experienced emotional pain or trauma, you know that healing is a process. And just like a caterpillar transforms into a butterfly, you too must undergo a period of transformation in order to emerge as a stronger, more resilient version of [...]

Disappointed, But Not Surprised

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