In the last few years, it seems like the world is a never-ending maze of pain with no way out. It's too lonely to bear, and the future looks bad and uncertain. At this point, the simplest things—personal hygiene, eating, socializing; things most people do without thinking twice—became big problems. Im numb, apathetic, and uninterested [...]
Everyone wants to be happy, feel good about themselves, and be free. It’s something we all deserve. But sometimes, being too happy is scary. There are moments when I’m enjoying life, feeling on top of the world, and not worrying about anything. Just living in the present, thinking that everything is finally going well. But [...]
When I say I am exhausted, I mean: I can not remember what I am doing from one moment to the next. Fiction conflates with reality, and I do not know if the person I know is a character from a book or someone I went to college with. Did I feed the dog? Or [...]
“If they are showing you who they are and not who you perceive them to be, let them.” — Cassie Phillips If people misunderstand you to be someone you’re not and hate you for it, let them. If people take your presence for granted every single time and never really cared for your feelings, let [...]
I miss you. I know that's what everyone says at a time like this, but I don't know what else to say. When I say, "I miss you," I mean I miss everything about you. I miss your hearty laugh, especially when we would laugh for 10 minutes straight about something that only you and [...]
He Dated Me to See If He Could Be Loved Without Deserving It He never looked at me like someone he loved. He looked at me like someone who might be dumb enough to love him anyway. That’s the part that still cuts. It wasn’t romance, it was a social experiment. A test. A “let’s [...]
I almost forgot this is the whole point There are days when the world becomes blurry. Not because my vision falters, but because I stop seeing. I wake up, and everything feels like a checklist. Breathe. Work. Smile. Answer. Pretend. Sleep. Repeat. Life is reduced to a loop of survival. It’s not that I’m sad. [...]
Let me hit you with something you probably haven’t heard from your therapist because they’re too busy validating your heartbreak: You didn’t lose your soulmate. You lost your fucking illusion. And I get it — that hurts more. Because the fantasy? It was perfect.It made you feel chosen.It gave your chaos a purpose.It was your [...]
What if all my trying only gets me close, but not quite. Have you ever tried so hard that your bones remember the weight of the effort, even when your mind has already begun to forget? I have. There are nights when I lie awake and think about all the versions of myself I’ve given [...]
They ask why you're not good at opening up, but they don't realize what they do when you actually try to open up. Sometimes you want to talk. You want to say everything that’s been eating you up. But when someone finally asks, "What’s wrong?" you just smile and say, "Nothing, I’m good." Because you [...]
Perfectly Imperfect 