LIFE IS ABOUT CHOICES.

Life is a matter of choices, and every choice you make makes you. 》 John C. Maxwell《 Honestly, I have come to love this quote in so many ways because, for me, it’s empowering to know that the choices I make will determine the outcome of my reality. There have been a few bad decisions [...]

Some Wounds Linger Forever;

Time will heal. Or perhaps not. I have realized that there are wounds that remain untouched and staying forever in the deepest corners of my heart. The part of my heart I don’t want to acknowledge exists; I bury everything that has caused me pain deep within and refuse to remember. Yet, they leave scars. [...]

Am I Too Weak Or Is This Too Much?

“I wish I could grow up sooner!” my five-year-old self exclaimed. Little did she know that growing up is far more maddening and infuriating than she could imagine. When I was a child, I remember how easily I became annoyed if my parents ordered me to take a nap during the daytime. “Why should I [...]

For So Long I Believed I Didn’t Deserve Love

It’s easy to feel like I am unlovable. Like the way that I am takes away some of the value I hold as a human being. That I am ‘less than’ because of reasons ‘x, y, and z.’My struggle with mental health has falsely defined me for too much of my life. I allowed the [...]

Healing

The biggest life lesson I’ve learned is that to be healed doesn’t mean everything will feel suddenly perfect forever. It’s a misconception I used to punish myself over. Why am I feeling like this again when I was doing so great? Instead, to be healed means; you have better coping mechanisms to deal with the [...]

When You Feel Homesick For a Place You’ve Never Been

I haven’t found my true home yet.” When someone says “I’m homesick”, often we assume they are in some foreign land, sighing in desperation: “Oh how I miss the weather, the people, the food, the comfort of my bed…” Then when they return home, guess what? They’re still homesick. I’ve struggled to describe that feeling [...]

I Wish I Could Hate You,

I wish I could hate you; It’s funny, I never thought I’d be writing this post yet here I am, hurting, crying, and breaking and it’s entirely my own fault. Against my better judgement, I let you in, I held onto hope, onto faith and onto wishes that I wanted so desperately to come true. [...]

My Nigga;

I hope you’re at peace, as much at peace as you can be under the circumstances. I hope you’re eating well and taking care of yourself physically. I hope you have the basic necessities — not including the one you’re more than likely substituting with a bottle of lotion and a smutty magazine — and [...]

To The Man Whom Loves Me Next✨

“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me…every day.” ~Nicholas Sparks I haven’t met you yet, or maybe I have. But I wish [...]

To My Daughter On Her Birthday.

Today, on my daughters 7th birthday, am finally going to admit something that I have never been strong enough to say out loud. I did not wish for a daughter because I never thought I would be good enough for her. Let me explain why. My Mom and I were never very close and I [...]