In the last few years, it seems like the world is a never-ending maze of pain with no way out. It's too lonely to bear, and the future looks bad and uncertain. At this point, the simplest things—personal hygiene, eating, socializing; things most people do without thinking twice—became big problems. Im numb, apathetic, and uninterested [...]
“I wish I could grow up sooner!” my five-year-old self exclaimed. Little did she know that growing up is far more maddening and infuriating than she could imagine. When I was a child, I remember how easily I became annoyed if my parents ordered me to take a nap during the daytime. “Why should I [...]
It’s easy to feel like I am unlovable. Like the way that I am takes away some of the value I hold as a human being. That I am ‘less than’ because of reasons ‘x, y, and z.’My struggle with mental health has falsely defined me for too much of my life. I allowed the [...]
The biggest life lesson I’ve learned is that to be healed doesn’t mean everything will feel suddenly perfect forever. It’s a misconception I used to punish myself over. Why am I feeling like this again when I was doing so great? Instead, to be healed means; you have better coping mechanisms to deal with the [...]
I haven’t found my true home yet.” When someone says “I’m homesick”, often we assume they are in some foreign land, sighing in desperation: “Oh how I miss the weather, the people, the food, the comfort of my bed…” Then when they return home, guess what? They’re still homesick. I’ve struggled to describe that feeling [...]
I wish I could hate you; It’s funny, I never thought I’d be writing this post yet here I am, hurting, crying, and breaking and it’s entirely my own fault. Against my better judgement, I let you in, I held onto hope, onto faith and onto wishes that I wanted so desperately to come true. [...]
I hope you’re at peace, as much at peace as you can be under the circumstances. I hope you’re eating well and taking care of yourself physically. I hope you have the basic necessities — not including the one you’re more than likely substituting with a bottle of lotion and a smutty magazine — and [...]
“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me…every day.” ~Nicholas Sparks I haven’t met you yet, or maybe I have. But I wish [...]
Today, on my daughters 7th birthday, am finally going to admit something that I have never been strong enough to say out loud. I did not wish for a daughter because I never thought I would be good enough for her. Let me explain why. My Mom and I were never very close and I [...]
I know how you’re feeling. I know the exhaustion that stretches across your skin and the emptiness returning to your chest after a long year. It has been a long one. You’ve survived so much. I know you want to huddle in bed right now instead of writing this, but I also know you ache [...]
Perfectly Imperfect 