Inhale, exhale. If it’s not enough, do it once more. This is my mantra every time I feel a meltdown coming on. When I was a kid, crying was the key to solving almost all my problems. Hungry? Just cry, and food would appear. Tired? Cry and Mama would sing me a lullaby until I [...]
In the last few years, it seems like the world is a never-ending maze of pain with no way out. It's too lonely to bear, and the future looks bad and uncertain. At this point, the simplest things—personal hygiene, eating, socializing; things most people do without thinking twice—became big problems. Im numb, apathetic, and uninterested [...]
Baby, would I still be your lover? I’ve been loved for false versions of myself. In return, I’ve been despised for the things I told people through honesty. But it’s far, far more fulfilling, because it’s tiring, it’s tiring to act like a robot or the friendly-face template that smiles at every single person when [...]
“I wish I could grow up sooner!” my five-year-old self exclaimed. Little did she know that growing up is far more maddening and infuriating than she could imagine. When I was a child, I remember how easily I became annoyed if my parents ordered me to take a nap during the daytime. “Why should I [...]
Everyone wants to be happy, feel good about themselves, and be free. It’s something we all deserve. But sometimes, being too happy is scary. There are moments when I’m enjoying life, feeling on top of the world, and not worrying about anything. Just living in the present, thinking that everything is finally going well. But [...]
It’s easy to feel like I am unlovable. Like the way that I am takes away some of the value I hold as a human being. That I am ‘less than’ because of reasons ‘x, y, and z.’My struggle with mental health has falsely defined me for too much of my life. I allowed the [...]
The biggest life lesson I’ve learned is that to be healed doesn’t mean everything will feel suddenly perfect forever. It’s a misconception I used to punish myself over. Why am I feeling like this again when I was doing so great? Instead, to be healed means; you have better coping mechanisms to deal with the [...]
I haven’t found my true home yet.” When someone says “I’m homesick”, often we assume they are in some foreign land, sighing in desperation: “Oh how I miss the weather, the people, the food, the comfort of my bed…” Then when they return home, guess what? They’re still homesick. I’ve struggled to describe that feeling [...]
It’s so hard for you right now. No one seems to understand. Many seem to not care. I’m sorry. You’re right. It’s super hard. Your emotions are all over the place. You aren’t sure what you’re going to do. You’re not even sure you’re going to make it. By grace, through faith, you WILL make [...]
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