When I say I am exhausted, I mean: I can not remember what I am doing from one moment to the next. Fiction conflates with reality, and I do not know if the person I know is a character from a book or someone I went to college with. Did I feed the dog? Or [...]
I almost forgot this is the whole point There are days when the world becomes blurry. Not because my vision falters, but because I stop seeing. I wake up, and everything feels like a checklist. Breathe. Work. Smile. Answer. Pretend. Sleep. Repeat. Life is reduced to a loop of survival. It’s not that I’m sad. [...]
Let me hit you with something you probably haven’t heard from your therapist because they’re too busy validating your heartbreak: You didn’t lose your soulmate. You lost your fucking illusion. And I get it — that hurts more. Because the fantasy? It was perfect.It made you feel chosen.It gave your chaos a purpose.It was your [...]
“The heaviest conversations are the ones we never have.” You ever sit with someone, and there’s so much you want to say, but the words feel too heavy to push past your lips? Not because you don’t know how, but because you’re afraid of what will come next. It’s funny how silence can be louder [...]
What if all my trying only gets me close, but not quite. Have you ever tried so hard that your bones remember the weight of the effort, even when your mind has already begun to forget? I have. There are nights when I lie awake and think about all the versions of myself I’ve given [...]
They ask why you're not good at opening up, but they don't realize what they do when you actually try to open up. Sometimes you want to talk. You want to say everything that’s been eating you up. But when someone finally asks, "What’s wrong?" you just smile and say, "Nothing, I’m good." Because you [...]
It’s not always easy, but you’re still here. That means something. Some Days Will Feel Too Much. There are mornings where simply getting up is an act of bravery. You won’t always be okay — and that’s not failure. That’s being human. You don’t have to bloom every season to still be growing. — Saiki Not Everything Will Make [...]
We've all been there, and it's not a fun place to be It’s the feeling in the pit of your stomach. It's the quickening of your breath. It's the feeling of your heart dropping in your stomach and like you're going to pass out. Maybe you even start to shake or sweat. It's the moment [...]
Love hurts is one of the assumptions no one likes, but we all take for granted. But why does love hurt? Why is the one thing that, poetically speaking, has the power to transcend time and space, causing so much pain? Because it’s not love we’re speaking about, it’s attachment. Some people will probably hate [...]
“Look at you, comforting others with the words you wish to hear.” Sometimes, it amazes me how I can give advice to someone even without experiencing their situation. I find myself speaking words of comfort and offering solutions and support. It’s strange how easily these words come to me, as if I have rehearsed them [...]
Perfectly Imperfect 