The changes we undergo are the beginnings of many firsts. I doubt anyone remembers their first steps, the way you struggled with each step. You probably fell, time and time again, and eventually you learned how to walk, your feet steady, and your first time became somewhat cherished — by your parents, your family, and [...]
Life is a matter of choices, and every choice you make makes you. 》 John C. Maxwell《 Honestly, I have come to love this quote in so many ways because, for me, it’s empowering to know that the choices I make will determine the outcome of my reality. There have been a few bad decisions [...]
Time will heal. Or perhaps not. I have realized that there are wounds that remain untouched and staying forever in the deepest corners of my heart. The part of my heart I don’t want to acknowledge exists; I bury everything that has caused me pain deep within and refuse to remember. Yet, they leave scars. [...]
Stop pretending like it doesn’t hurt. It hurt, doesn't it? It seems like you’re getting overwhelmed again and need to go back to the starting point. You might have to furrow your brow and clench your hand to hold back the sudden nausea, followed by feelings of guilt because it feels like you can’t finish [...]
Inhale, exhale. If it’s not enough, do it once more. This is my mantra every time I feel a meltdown coming on. When I was a kid, crying was the key to solving almost all my problems. Hungry? Just cry, and food would appear. Tired? Cry and Mama would sing me a lullaby until I [...]
In the last few years, it seems like the world is a never-ending maze of pain with no way out. It's too lonely to bear, and the future looks bad and uncertain. At this point, the simplest things—personal hygiene, eating, socializing; things most people do without thinking twice—became big problems. Im numb, apathetic, and uninterested [...]
Baby, would I still be your lover? I’ve been loved for false versions of myself. In return, I’ve been despised for the things I told people through honesty. But it’s far, far more fulfilling, because it’s tiring, it’s tiring to act like a robot or the friendly-face template that smiles at every single person when [...]
Sometimes, when night comes and I am alone with my thoughts, I think about you. The you who came into my life unexpectedly and suddenly became the center of my universe. The you with your blue shirt and thick-lensed glasses, smiling softly at those around you. The you who was too shy to talk to [...]
“I wish I could grow up sooner!” my five-year-old self exclaimed. Little did she know that growing up is far more maddening and infuriating than she could imagine. When I was a child, I remember how easily I became annoyed if my parents ordered me to take a nap during the daytime. “Why should I [...]
The biggest life lesson I’ve learned is that to be healed doesn’t mean everything will feel suddenly perfect forever. It’s a misconception I used to punish myself over. Why am I feeling like this again when I was doing so great? Instead, to be healed means; you have better coping mechanisms to deal with the [...]
Perfectly Imperfect 