When I say I am exhausted, I mean: I can not remember what I am doing from one moment to the next. Fiction conflates with reality, and I do not know if the person I know is a character from a book or someone I went to college with. Did I feed the dog? Or [...]
Tag: illusions
Dear Addict;
I know you. I know who you are. I may not know your name. But I KNOW you. I AM you. I’d like to tell you a few things. First, let me say that I know at no point in your life that you choose to be the way you are. I know you didn’t [...]
Every Girl Needs To Listen To ‘She Used To Be Mine’ By Sara Bareilles
These powerful lyrics remind us how much good is inside each of us and that sometimes we are too blinded by our imperfections to see the other side of the coin, to see all of that good. https://youtu.be/53GIADHxVzM?si=X4OAjmbcVK8ICr2t Press play while you read. Sara Bareilles' song "She Used to be Mine" is about a young [...]
He Didn’t Date Me for Love
He Dated Me to See If He Could Be Loved Without Deserving It He never looked at me like someone he loved. He looked at me like someone who might be dumb enough to love him anyway. That’s the part that still cuts. It wasn’t romance, it was a social experiment. A test. A “let’s [...]
This Is My Reminder To Live.
I almost forgot this is the whole point There are days when the world becomes blurry. Not because my vision falters, but because I stop seeing. I wake up, and everything feels like a checklist. Breathe. Work. Smile. Answer. Pretend. Sleep. Repeat. Life is reduced to a loop of survival. It’s not that I’m sad. [...]
You Didn’t Lose the “Love of Your Life”— You Lost the Fantasy
Let me hit you with something you probably haven’t heard from your therapist because they’re too busy validating your heartbreak: You didn’t lose your soulmate. You lost your fucking illusion. And I get it — that hurts more. Because the fantasy? It was perfect.It made you feel chosen.It gave your chaos a purpose.It was your [...]
What If I Try My Best, But It’s Still Not Enough?
What if all my trying only gets me close, but not quite. Have you ever tried so hard that your bones remember the weight of the effort, even when your mind has already begun to forget? I have. There are nights when I lie awake and think about all the versions of myself I’ve given [...]
One Day;
You really do get over it on a random day Sometimes, some things don’t happen the way you think they will. There’s no grand moment, no fireworks in your chest, no sudden burst of clarity. You just wake up one day, maybe on a Tuesday morning or a Saturday afternoon, and something feels … different. Not [...]
The Cost Of Knowing.
Sometimes, the truth doesn’t heal. It just hurts. It is a cliché saying that the truth will set us free. Free? But at what cost? Breaking down? Crying yourself to sleep every night? Questioning everything around you? Yes, I somehow still agree that truth sets us free. But what people always forget to mention is [...]
I Loved You, But I Lost Myself
When love made me forget who I was, I had to choose myself to find my way back. I used to wake up each morning with a heart full of excitement, But now I wake up with a quiet ache, Wondering when I stopped feeling like myself. I used to believe that love was about [...]
