When I Say I’m Exhausted

When I say I am exhausted, I mean: I can not remember what I am doing from one moment to the next. Fiction conflates with reality, and I do not know if the person I know is a character from a book or someone I went to college with. Did I feed the dog? Or [...]

What If I Told You I Love You

What if I told you everything I’ve been hiding so deep inside? If I just looked you in the eyes and told you every single insecurity that plagues me daily. Or how about that I just don’t feel good enough for you. Because I don’t. I don’t feel like I’ve been the person worthy of [...]

Dear Andy,

I miss you. I know that's what everyone says at a time like this, but I don't know what else to say. When I say, "I miss you," I mean I miss everything about you. I miss your hearty laugh, especially when we would laugh for 10 minutes straight about something that only you and [...]

He Didn’t Date Me for Love

He Dated Me to See If He Could Be Loved Without Deserving It He never looked at me like someone he loved. He looked at me like someone who might be dumb enough to love him anyway. That’s the part that still cuts. It wasn’t romance, it was a social experiment. A test. A “let’s [...]

You Didn’t Lose the “Love of Your Life”— You Lost the Fantasy

Let me hit you with something you probably haven’t heard from your therapist because they’re too busy validating your heartbreak: You didn’t lose your soulmate. You lost your fucking illusion. And I get it — that hurts more. Because the fantasy? It was perfect.It made you feel chosen.It gave your chaos a purpose.It was your [...]

The Weight of Unspoken Words

“The heaviest conversations are the ones we never have.” You ever sit with someone, and there’s so much you want to say, but the words feel too heavy to push past your lips? Not because you don’t know how, but because you’re afraid of what will come next. It’s funny how silence can be louder [...]

What If I Try My Best, But It’s Still Not Enough?

What if all my trying only gets me close, but not quite. Have you ever tried so hard that your bones remember the weight of the effort, even when your mind has already begun to forget? I have. There are nights when I lie awake and think about all the versions of myself I’ve given [...]

One Day;

You really do get over it on a random day Sometimes, some things don’t happen the way you think they will. There’s no grand moment, no fireworks in your chest, no sudden burst of clarity. You just wake up one day, maybe on a Tuesday morning or a Saturday afternoon, and something feels … different. Not [...]

The Cost Of Knowing.

Sometimes, the truth doesn’t heal. It just hurts. It is a cliché saying that the truth will set us free. Free? But at what cost? Breaking down? Crying yourself to sleep every night? Questioning everything around you? Yes, I somehow still agree that truth sets us free. But what people always forget to mention is [...]

I Loved You, But I Lost Myself

When love made me forget who I was, I had to choose myself to find my way back. I used to wake up each morning with a heart full of excitement, But now I wake up with a quiet ache, Wondering when I stopped feeling like myself. I used to believe that love was about [...]