He Didn’t Date Me for Love

He Dated Me to See If He Could Be Loved Without Deserving It He never looked at me like someone he loved. He looked at me like someone who might be dumb enough to love him anyway. That’s the part that still cuts. It wasn’t romance, it was a social experiment. A test. A “let’s [...]

You Didn’t Lose the “Love of Your Life”— You Lost the Fantasy

Let me hit you with something you probably haven’t heard from your therapist because they’re too busy validating your heartbreak: You didn’t lose your soulmate. You lost your fucking illusion. And I get it — that hurts more. Because the fantasy? It was perfect.It made you feel chosen.It gave your chaos a purpose.It was your [...]

The Weight of Unspoken Words

“The heaviest conversations are the ones we never have.” You ever sit with someone, and there’s so much you want to say, but the words feel too heavy to push past your lips? Not because you don’t know how, but because you’re afraid of what will come next. It’s funny how silence can be louder [...]

What If I Try My Best, But It’s Still Not Enough?

What if all my trying only gets me close, but not quite. Have you ever tried so hard that your bones remember the weight of the effort, even when your mind has already begun to forget? I have. There are nights when I lie awake and think about all the versions of myself I’ve given [...]

One Day;

You really do get over it on a random day Sometimes, some things don’t happen the way you think they will. There’s no grand moment, no fireworks in your chest, no sudden burst of clarity. You just wake up one day, maybe on a Tuesday morning or a Saturday afternoon, and something feels … different. Not [...]

The Cost Of Knowing.

Sometimes, the truth doesn’t heal. It just hurts. It is a cliché saying that the truth will set us free. Free? But at what cost? Breaking down? Crying yourself to sleep every night? Questioning everything around you? Yes, I somehow still agree that truth sets us free. But what people always forget to mention is [...]

When he says he’s “not ready”

When a man says “I need some time”, you can hand him a watch. When he says “I’m not ready for a serious relationship”, you should believe him. When he says “I’m not sure”, instead of being uncertain about where this is going, this should give you absolute certainty that it’s not going anywhere. You [...]

To The One Who Screwed Up

We've all been there, and it's not a fun place to be It’s the feeling in the pit of your stomach. It's the quickening of your breath. It's the feeling of your heart dropping in your stomach and like you're going to pass out. Maybe you even start to shake or sweat. It's the moment [...]

The Beauty of Trying

If there is one thing that I take pride in about myself and everyone who is struggling just like me, it is the fact that we try. We try to get out of bed even when it pulls us stronger than gravity. We try to choose the best outfit for the day even if all [...]

Love Doesn’t Hurt, Attachments Do

Love hurts is one of the assumptions no one likes, but we all take for granted. But why does love hurt? Why is the one thing that, poetically speaking, has the power to transcend time and space, causing so much pain? Because it’s not love we’re speaking about, it’s attachment. Some people will probably hate [...]