To my broken sense of self Hey. . . I know you’re not doing okay by any means, but I just wanted to let you know that I love you. I know that I don’t say it nearly enough, if ever, even when I know it’s what you need from me. But I just can’t give [...]
Tag: fear
Introducing Timothy Parrish;
"I don’t know if I want you, he says. But I do know I don’t want anyone else to have you.It wasn’t good enough, I knew that. Honestly I did. In my mind, it was crystal clear. My heart, however, was having a serious case of selective hearing. All it heard was I don’t want anyone else to have you. And [...]
I Wish I Could Hate You,
I wish I could hate you; It’s funny, I never thought I’d be writing this post yet here I am, hurting, crying, and breaking and it’s entirely my own fault. Against my better judgement, I let you in, I held onto hope, onto faith and onto wishes that I wanted so desperately to come true. [...]
To My Daughter On Her Birthday.
Today, on my daughters 7th birthday, am finally going to admit something that I have never been strong enough to say out loud. I did not wish for a daughter because I never thought I would be good enough for her. Let me explain why. My Mom and I were never very close and I [...]
You Are Not Your Pain
I know how you’re feeling. I know the exhaustion that stretches across your skin and the emptiness returning to your chest after a long year. It has been a long one. You’ve survived so much. I know you want to huddle in bed right now instead of writing this, but I also know you ache [...]
An Open Letter To The People Who’s Lost Themselves;
This isn't the end, only the beginning. I’ve been there. You’re feeling confused and in a slump because you have no idea when it happened. Life got busy, you got overwhelmed, and you started to lose yourself in the midst of everything else going on in your world. The moment when you started noticing that [...]
Dear 2023;
“Oftentimes the hardest part of the journey is simply believing you’re worthy of the trip.” I noticed that you haven’t been yourself lately. There’s been a lot on your plate and you’ve been having trouble keeping up. But don’t despair, please stay hopeful. Everything is going to come back. Your peace, your confidence, your joy, [...]
I Feel Lost. .
Today is the nicest day we’ve had all week, yet I feel like crap. Not because it’s nice outside, I just can’t seem to get out of bed anymore. I feel like crap because I feel like there’s no cement to hold the stones of the wall that is my life together. There may have [...]
To Cody; Words Written But Never Said.
I wanted to believe that you were more than your lies. Before falling in love with you I knew that you would be a challenge to love. I had heard all of the horror stories but I wanted to believe that you were something more than the rumors people spread about you. I believed in [...]
Who Am I Without This Pain?
Whatever is going on—it's okay. It's okay if you're confused, if you're hurt, if you don't know who you are and what you're doing. It's okay to be lost and it's okay to be hurt. Because when you look back, it's not the moments that you felt lost and unsure that you'll remember. It'll be [...]
Perfectly Imperfect 