When I say I am exhausted, I mean: I can not remember what I am doing from one moment to the next. Fiction conflates with reality, and I do not know if the person I know is a character from a book or someone I went to college with. Did I feed the dog? Or [...]
I know you. I know who you are. I may not know your name. But I KNOW you. I AM you. I’d like to tell you a few things. First, let me say that I know at no point in your life that you choose to be the way you are. I know you didn’t [...]
We continue to find increasingly new ways to stay busy from making our own bread (and muffins, and pizza dough, and basically anything we can think of from the extra sourdough starter to avoid food waste) to taking several extra minutes just to whip up our coffee so we can share a fun video and [...]
So, you finished rehab. You’re sober now. Living in a halfway house. Waking up early to catch the bus to a job that barely pays the bills. You’re splitting a fridge with three other addicts, Listening to them fight over food or relapse excuses, Trying to stay focused on your own lane — your own [...]
“If they are showing you who they are and not who you perceive them to be, let them.” — Cassie Phillips If people misunderstand you to be someone you’re not and hate you for it, let them. If people take your presence for granted every single time and never really cared for your feelings, let [...]
Because the rollercoaster is what makes you human. Yesterday it rained. It’s times like these where the hopeless romantic in me is love-drunk with the scene around her: a creative-type, sitting in bed writing; occasionally peering through a raindrop-covered window, listening to the gentle pitter-patter, mixed with the occasional slushing of a car passing by, [...]
I miss you. I know that's what everyone says at a time like this, but I don't know what else to say. When I say, "I miss you," I mean I miss everything about you. I miss your hearty laugh, especially when we would laugh for 10 minutes straight about something that only you and [...]
He Dated Me to See If He Could Be Loved Without Deserving It He never looked at me like someone he loved. He looked at me like someone who might be dumb enough to love him anyway. That’s the part that still cuts. It wasn’t romance, it was a social experiment. A test. A “let’s [...]
Let me hit you with something you probably haven’t heard from your therapist because they’re too busy validating your heartbreak: You didn’t lose your soulmate. You lost your fucking illusion. And I get it — that hurts more. Because the fantasy? It was perfect.It made you feel chosen.It gave your chaos a purpose.It was your [...]
“The heaviest conversations are the ones we never have.” You ever sit with someone, and there’s so much you want to say, but the words feel too heavy to push past your lips? Not because you don’t know how, but because you’re afraid of what will come next. It’s funny how silence can be louder [...]
Perfectly Imperfect 