If there is one thing that I take pride in about myself and everyone who is struggling just like me, it is the fact that we try. We try to get out of bed even when it pulls us stronger than gravity. We try to choose the best outfit for the day even if all [...]
Love hurts is one of the assumptions no one likes, but we all take for granted. But why does love hurt? Why is the one thing that, poetically speaking, has the power to transcend time and space, causing so much pain? Because it’s not love we’re speaking about, it’s attachment. Some people will probably hate [...]
Love — be it romantic, self, or otherwise — is rascally. A few undiligent weeks, and you can lose yourself, parts of you breaking off in pieces as the sun rises and sets. You can’t go on cruise control, ignoring the shifts, and starting and stopping that the cultivation of love requires. You must be [...]
Stop pretending like it doesn’t hurt. It hurt, doesn't it? It seems like you’re getting overwhelmed again and need to go back to the starting point. You might have to furrow your brow and clench your hand to hold back the sudden nausea, followed by feelings of guilt because it feels like you can’t finish [...]
Inhale, exhale. If it’s not enough, do it once more. This is my mantra every time I feel a meltdown coming on. When I was a kid, crying was the key to solving almost all my problems. Hungry? Just cry, and food would appear. Tired? Cry and Mama would sing me a lullaby until I [...]
In the last few years, it seems like the world is a never-ending maze of pain with no way out. It's too lonely to bear, and the future looks bad and uncertain. At this point, the simplest things—personal hygiene, eating, socializing; things most people do without thinking twice—became big problems. Im numb, apathetic, and uninterested [...]
Baby, would I still be your lover? I’ve been loved for false versions of myself. In return, I’ve been despised for the things I told people through honesty. But it’s far, far more fulfilling, because it’s tiring, it’s tiring to act like a robot or the friendly-face template that smiles at every single person when [...]
Sometimes, when night comes and I am alone with my thoughts, I think about you. The you who came into my life unexpectedly and suddenly became the center of my universe. The you with your blue shirt and thick-lensed glasses, smiling softly at those around you. The you who was too shy to talk to [...]
“I wish I could grow up sooner!” my five-year-old self exclaimed. Little did she know that growing up is far more maddening and infuriating than she could imagine. When I was a child, I remember how easily I became annoyed if my parents ordered me to take a nap during the daytime. “Why should I [...]
Everyone wants to be happy, feel good about themselves, and be free. It’s something we all deserve. But sometimes, being too happy is scary. There are moments when I’m enjoying life, feeling on top of the world, and not worrying about anything. Just living in the present, thinking that everything is finally going well. But [...]
Perfectly Imperfect 