He Dated Me to See If He Could Be Loved Without Deserving It He never looked at me like someone he loved. He looked at me like someone who might be dumb enough to love him anyway. That’s the part that still cuts. It wasn’t romance, it was a social experiment. A test. A “let’s [...]
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You Didn’t Lose the “Love of Your Life”— You Lost the Fantasy
Let me hit you with something you probably haven’t heard from your therapist because they’re too busy validating your heartbreak: You didn’t lose your soulmate. You lost your fucking illusion. And I get it — that hurts more. Because the fantasy? It was perfect.It made you feel chosen.It gave your chaos a purpose.It was your [...]
The Weight of Unspoken Words
“The heaviest conversations are the ones we never have.” You ever sit with someone, and there’s so much you want to say, but the words feel too heavy to push past your lips? Not because you don’t know how, but because you’re afraid of what will come next. It’s funny how silence can be louder [...]
What If I Try My Best, But It’s Still Not Enough?
What if all my trying only gets me close, but not quite. Have you ever tried so hard that your bones remember the weight of the effort, even when your mind has already begun to forget? I have. There are nights when I lie awake and think about all the versions of myself I’ve given [...]
To The One Who Screwed Up
We've all been there, and it's not a fun place to be It’s the feeling in the pit of your stomach. It's the quickening of your breath. It's the feeling of your heart dropping in your stomach and like you're going to pass out. Maybe you even start to shake or sweat. It's the moment [...]
The Beauty of Trying
If there is one thing that I take pride in about myself and everyone who is struggling just like me, it is the fact that we try. We try to get out of bed even when it pulls us stronger than gravity. We try to choose the best outfit for the day even if all [...]
Love Doesn’t Hurt, Attachments Do
Love hurts is one of the assumptions no one likes, but we all take for granted. But why does love hurt? Why is the one thing that, poetically speaking, has the power to transcend time and space, causing so much pain? Because it’s not love we’re speaking about, it’s attachment. Some people will probably hate [...]
I Say The Words I Wish To Hear;
“Look at you, comforting others with the words you wish to hear.” Sometimes, it amazes me how I can give advice to someone even without experiencing their situation. I find myself speaking words of comfort and offering solutions and support. It’s strange how easily these words come to me, as if I have rehearsed them [...]
It’s My First Time Too
The changes we undergo are the beginnings of many firsts. I doubt anyone remembers their first steps, the way you struggled with each step. You probably fell, time and time again, and eventually you learned how to walk, your feet steady, and your first time became somewhat cherished — by your parents, your family, and [...]
What If I Never Met You?
Sometimes, when night comes and I am alone with my thoughts, I think about you. The you who came into my life unexpectedly and suddenly became the center of my universe. The you with your blue shirt and thick-lensed glasses, smiling softly at those around you. The you who was too shy to talk to [...]
