Life won’t get easier, but it’s okay

Inhale, exhale. If it’s not enough, do it once more. This is my mantra every time I feel a meltdown coming on. When I was a kid, crying was the key to solving almost all my problems. Hungry? Just cry, and food would appear. Tired? Cry and Mama would sing me a lullaby until I [...]

If The Sun Refused To Shine

Baby, would I still be your lover? I’ve been loved for false versions of myself. In return, I’ve been despised for the things I told people through honesty. But it’s far, far more fulfilling, because it’s tiring, it’s tiring to act like a robot or the friendly-face template that smiles at every single person when [...]

What If I Never Met You?

Sometimes, when night comes and I am alone with my thoughts, I think about you. The you who came into my life unexpectedly and suddenly became the center of my universe. The you with your blue shirt and thick-lensed glasses, smiling softly at those around you. The you who was too shy to talk to [...]

Am I Too Weak Or Is This Too Much?

“I wish I could grow up sooner!” my five-year-old self exclaimed. Little did she know that growing up is far more maddening and infuriating than she could imagine. When I was a child, I remember how easily I became annoyed if my parents ordered me to take a nap during the daytime. “Why should I [...]

To The Man I Hurt With My Words

I hope this letter finds you well. I am writing to you today with a heavy heart, filled with regret and remorse for the pain I have caused you. Please accept my sincerest apologies for my thoughtless actions and the hurt they have inflicted upon you. I understand my actions were careless, and I should [...]

For So Long I Believed I Didn’t Deserve Love

It’s easy to feel like I am unlovable. Like the way that I am takes away some of the value I hold as a human being. That I am ‘less than’ because of reasons ‘x, y, and z.’My struggle with mental health has falsely defined me for too much of my life. I allowed the [...]

Healing

The biggest life lesson I’ve learned is that to be healed doesn’t mean everything will feel suddenly perfect forever. It’s a misconception I used to punish myself over. Why am I feeling like this again when I was doing so great? Instead, to be healed means; you have better coping mechanisms to deal with the [...]

It’s Okay To Disappear Until You Feel Like You Again

Sometimes, all you need is to take a break and work on yourself. If you’ve experienced emotional pain or trauma, you know that healing is a process. And just like a caterpillar transforms into a butterfly, you too must undergo a period of transformation in order to emerge as a stronger, more resilient version of [...]

Facing The Choice And The Pain

It’s so hard for you right now. No one seems to understand. Many seem to not care. I’m sorry. You’re right. It’s super hard.  Your emotions are all over the place. You aren’t sure what you’re going to do. You’re not even sure you’re going to make it. By grace, through faith, you WILL make [...]

Disappointed, But Not Surprised

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