In the last few years, it seems like the world is a never-ending maze of pain with no way out. It's too lonely to bear, and the future looks bad and uncertain. At this point, the simplest things—personal hygiene, eating, socializing; things most people do without thinking twice—became big problems. Im numb, apathetic, and uninterested [...]
Category: loss
Happiness Is Scary
Everyone wants to be happy, feel good about themselves, and be free. It’s something we all deserve. But sometimes, being too happy is scary. There are moments when I’m enjoying life, feeling on top of the world, and not worrying about anything. Just living in the present, thinking that everything is finally going well. But [...]
To Anyone Going Through A Hard Time;
First and foremost, I want you to know, how special you are, and I don’t mean it in the way your parents do. When they boast about you to their friends and your family, because that always seemed forced, even though I’m sure they mean well. No, I want you to know how you light [...]
A Letter To The Man Who Took Me For Granted
I never asked you to come into my life. You wanted to be a part of it. You signed up for everything on your own. You wanted to share your life with me and you wanted me to let you in mine. You were so convincing because in some moments I saw you looking at [...]
When I Say I’m Exhausted
When I say I am exhausted, I mean: I can not remember what I am doing from one moment to the next. Fiction conflates with reality, and I do not know if the person I know is a character from a book or someone I went to college with. Did I feed the dog? Or [...]
To The Person That Feels Forgotten;
I wish I could sit with you today, reach out and cover you with a blanket, offer a cup of coffee or tea, a listening ear. If I could, I’d hold your hand, look into your eyes, and promise not to flinch if you feel comfortable enough to speak your truth into the space between [...]
Nanny Life Won’t Be The Same Without You;
As I sit down to write this letter to you I can’t help but cry and think about how much I miss you. It’s been awhile since I’ve seen you and I want to say, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that it was so hard for me to be able to come home to be with [...]
Becoming Your Safe Space
We continue to find increasingly new ways to stay busy from making our own bread (and muffins, and pizza dough, and basically anything we can think of from the extra sourdough starter to avoid food waste) to taking several extra minutes just to whip up our coffee so we can share a fun video and [...]
The Importance Of Being A Good Person
An open letter to the good-hearted people. We are all born to do something great. Whether that be to grow up and become a doctor and save the lives of thousands of people, run a marathon, win the Noble Peace Prize, or be the greatest mother or father for your own future children one day. [...]
Recovery;
So, you finished rehab. You’re sober now. Living in a halfway house. Waking up early to catch the bus to a job that barely pays the bills. You’re splitting a fridge with three other addicts, Listening to them fight over food or relapse excuses, Trying to stay focused on your own lane — your own [...]
