First and foremost, I want you to know, how special you are, and I don’t mean it in the way your parents do. When they boast about you to their friends and your family, because that always seemed forced, even though I’m sure they mean well. No, I want you to know how you light [...]
I never asked you to come into my life. You wanted to be a part of it. You signed up for everything on your own. You wanted to share your life with me and you wanted me to let you in mine. You were so convincing because in some moments I saw you looking at [...]
When I say I am exhausted, I mean: I can not remember what I am doing from one moment to the next. Fiction conflates with reality, and I do not know if the person I know is a character from a book or someone I went to college with. Did I feed the dog? Or [...]
What if I wasn’t meant to feel, only to see? What if I was only meant to watch, never to experience? For years, I’ve tried nurturing and sustaining relationships by changing myself to what I thought was best for the people I love. It’s important for me to know that they have everything they want, [...]
He Dated Me to See If He Could Be Loved Without Deserving It He never looked at me like someone he loved. He looked at me like someone who might be dumb enough to love him anyway. That’s the part that still cuts. It wasn’t romance, it was a social experiment. A test. A “let’s [...]
Let me hit you with something you probably haven’t heard from your therapist because they’re too busy validating your heartbreak: You didn’t lose your soulmate. You lost your fucking illusion. And I get it — that hurts more. Because the fantasy? It was perfect.It made you feel chosen.It gave your chaos a purpose.It was your [...]
“The heaviest conversations are the ones we never have.” You ever sit with someone, and there’s so much you want to say, but the words feel too heavy to push past your lips? Not because you don’t know how, but because you’re afraid of what will come next. It’s funny how silence can be louder [...]
What if all my trying only gets me close, but not quite. Have you ever tried so hard that your bones remember the weight of the effort, even when your mind has already begun to forget? I have. There are nights when I lie awake and think about all the versions of myself I’ve given [...]
You really do get over it on a random day Sometimes, some things don’t happen the way you think they will. There’s no grand moment, no fireworks in your chest, no sudden burst of clarity. You just wake up one day, maybe on a Tuesday morning or a Saturday afternoon, and something feels … different. Not [...]
Sometimes, the truth doesn’t heal. It just hurts. It is a cliché saying that the truth will set us free. Free? But at what cost? Breaking down? Crying yourself to sleep every night? Questioning everything around you? Yes, I somehow still agree that truth sets us free. But what people always forget to mention is [...]
Perfectly Imperfect 