He Didn’t Date Me for Love

He Dated Me to See If He Could Be Loved Without Deserving It He never looked at me like someone he loved. He looked at me like someone who might be dumb enough to love him anyway. That’s the part that still cuts. It wasn’t romance, it was a social experiment. A test. A “let’s [...]

You Didn’t Lose the “Love of Your Life”— You Lost the Fantasy

Let me hit you with something you probably haven’t heard from your therapist because they’re too busy validating your heartbreak: You didn’t lose your soulmate. You lost your fucking illusion. And I get it — that hurts more. Because the fantasy? It was perfect.It made you feel chosen.It gave your chaos a purpose.It was your [...]

The Weight of Unspoken Words

“The heaviest conversations are the ones we never have.” You ever sit with someone, and there’s so much you want to say, but the words feel too heavy to push past your lips? Not because you don’t know how, but because you’re afraid of what will come next. It’s funny how silence can be louder [...]

I Loved You, But I Lost Myself

When love made me forget who I was, I had to choose myself to find my way back. I used to wake up each morning with a heart full of excitement, But now I wake up with a quiet ache, Wondering when I stopped feeling like myself. I used to believe that love was about [...]

When he says he’s “not ready”

When a man says “I need some time”, you can hand him a watch. When he says “I’m not ready for a serious relationship”, you should believe him. When he says “I’m not sure”, instead of being uncertain about where this is going, this should give you absolute certainty that it’s not going anywhere. You [...]

The Beauty of Trying

If there is one thing that I take pride in about myself and everyone who is struggling just like me, it is the fact that we try. We try to get out of bed even when it pulls us stronger than gravity. We try to choose the best outfit for the day even if all [...]

Love Doesn’t Hurt, Attachments Do

Love hurts is one of the assumptions no one likes, but we all take for granted. But why does love hurt? Why is the one thing that, poetically speaking, has the power to transcend time and space, causing so much pain? Because it’s not love we’re speaking about, it’s attachment. Some people will probably hate [...]

It’s My First Time Too

The changes we undergo are the beginnings of many firsts. I doubt anyone remembers their first steps, the way you struggled with each step. You probably fell, time and time again, and eventually you learned how to walk, your feet steady, and your first time became somewhat cherished — by your parents, your family, and [...]

To The Man Whom Loves Me Next✨

“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me…every day.” ~Nicholas Sparks I haven’t met you yet, or maybe I have. But I wish [...]

To Cody; Words Written But Never Said.

I wanted to believe that you were more than your lies. Before falling in love with you I knew that you would be a challenge to love. I had heard all of the horror stories but I wanted to believe that you were something more than the rumors people spread about you. I believed in [...]