Why?

Just why, is it that it’s always the same thing that happens over and over and over? People just constantly use me and never for a second take into consideration what I do for them? I’m sick of always being the one looking after everyone. The one who’s always there. The one who’s never appreciated, not even for a second. Everyone just always takes me for an absolute fool. I’m sick of it. I really am.

I’d love just for a while if people could actually see how lonely I really am. Just how shit everything really is. But no one could be bothered to care about me. No one. Absolutely no one. I’ve never actually felt more alone this past year or two that I have my entire life. Everything’s just starting to really pile up and I can’t cope as much anymore. One of these days I’m going to just snap. But I don’t worry for myself, it’s everyone else. Some day someone is going to say something that’s just going to push me over the edge and I’ll just snap.

I literally just can’t anymore. It’s too much. Far too much for anyone to be dealing with. But it just really kills me how no one, NO ONE can see it. It’s so obvious how much I need someone right now but no one has the time to notice.

It’s like I’m just floating by and the rest of the world is moving at the speed of light.

No one notices me.